Liz's Poetry

new poems

2006-04-19T21:24:00.000-06:00

Prison

Brain dead
No remorse
No emotion shown anymore
Lies and steals things
Problems with his father caused it
He learned how to do it when he was young
He can’t be cured
Maybe it will be a wake up call,
To make his new home a cell.
A scary place to be,
With gangs and violence.
But what other choice is there,
When every other option has failed?

Baracuda

On the orange rock
A greedy confused pineapple
on an adventure called life.
Traveling to the milky way
meets a baracuda
Falls into its pool
A drooling baracuda licking its lips
A shivering scared pineapple
fur and juces flying around
the baracuda goes back to sunning himself,
full and happy.
the pineapple is no more

Unicornville

2006-04-18T19:44:00.000-06:00

Unicornville is a place were us unicorns live. Its were we roam free with our own kind. Located in never-neverland just before you get to dragon valley, ya take a right, pass though elf land and it's the 5th medow on the right. we have purple houses with silver trim. We are not all white either. some look like fire, the earth, or the great lakes.

(thanks to Fay for helping me )

Choices

2006-04-18T19:37:00.000-06:00

“Choices”

What is it between us?
If not love than what?
I have no answers
You finally admit that you love me,
That you can go this way.
You want to love me I see it in your eyes,
But I’m taken.
I love him so much
I could never hurt him

It’s hard to decide
I look in my heart,
And I think of the two of you.
I love you both equally,
But who would fit better?
It is something I must debate,
It is not to be taken lightly.

He would be the easier choice
The one that would keep my life the same.
He understands
We could get married and have kids someday
My family will except him
We can hold hands and no one will stare

You would change my life,
It would cause a mess neither of us want.
Our families wouldn’t understand,
And we would have to tell them at a point.
It would be more difficult to have a family of our own.
People would stare if we held hands

You meet my needs,
How he can not.
You are willing to go the ends of the Earth,
And spend every bit of time with me.
He is not always so willing,
But he really cares and loves me.
He is causous and planed,
While you are brave and spontaneous.

I’d give you both the shirt off my back,
And anything else you needed.
Neither is perfect,
Each has flaws.
And if I I follow my heart, I’ll be forever confused.

I think you are right,
I could be happy either way.
I chose to be with him instead of you.
I will always love you,
You are forever in my heart
My friend, my lover, my sister-
The one who is there when no ONE else is!!!

Life

2006-04-05T19:19:00.000-06:00

A new life
I push the gass peddal
Nothing happens
We are stuck
Is she a ghost i ask?
13 curves-the deadly highway
That is where we are
I'm kinda scared
The hair on the back of my neck rises,
I start to sweat,
I've never been at a site of a real haunting.
What will happen?

Freedom's representation
I've never been there,
But I hope to someday.
Its not been the same since 2001,
When planes crashed into the world trade center-
Hours later crumble down.
so much compassion the world has ever seen,
Was poured out.
They thought they would cause disaster,
But how wrong they were!
We became more united

I'm scared to go out into the world
My unforseen future
Studing and taking tests are all i know
It has consumed me
Staying up late and getting up early
What if i can't get a job?
Some are presecuted,
Just for their faith.
I have no answers
You are forever in my heart
The one who is there when no one else is.

More Magnetic Poems-I think I'm addicted

2006-04-05T19:12:00.001-06:00

spare with nothing
light wind
western hills
writing sweetly
fly low and with sight
voices can not be shouted
When herd a letter
Compares sleep
And rhyming
Come but morning skies
apears sheep growing sweaters
dews covered the heart
LaUGHING to death
written breath plays
if of surprise is else sun
becides me little rhymes of us
Bed until verse fades
Day arise yet lines
Above her home
the beast rests
still everynight
leaped away birds
leave echoed sonnet
green things by them
were okay gone
my one love
his life to mine

“The Kitten Fly”

Iron face
Abnormal whirlpool
Weak machine
Soft silk button
Whirling it down
Chewing vacuum
Her scorching uncleanness stands out
The ever elegance leaves sense
Mean time quiet
Dragging the sparrow in brow
Lost tremors wake soft oak
Talking vainly
The unreachable soaked abyss
Makes arms into cats of ledger
Glow pass ring
Falls with drum beats
Within the supernatural
Intrepid conflict
Sink full of good
No moment gone complete
Push worm dies
Only animal corpses here
A soda can breaks the chain
Zeal of the ocean
Wet movement occurs
Tough to behold
The deepest burn scares

these are so fun to do and i have found 3 or 4 sites that have magnetic poems. It is so much fun to do when you are bored.

My Essay

2006-03-31T00:02:00.000-06:00

Friendship

Have you ever wondered how friendships work? I mean how do two completely different people create a bond and a pack with each other? It is something so deep it is hard to explain. You get so emotionally attached to the person, who, you call a friend. In the beginning you start things off slow then you grow together. This is the person who knows you so well. You can call them at 3 a.m. just to talk and neither of you care. You are like siblings and incepterable. You would give your life for this person.

A friend is the person you talk to about everything. The good and the bad. The happy and the sad. You share your wants, needs, and goals. Nothing is out of bounds. You listen to their problems, wipe their tears, and hold their hand when they are scared at night.

Do you ever wonder why a friend is who picks you up after you fall? It is them who shows you compassion and is there no matter what. It is the friend who tells you they have your back no matter what. They just seem there when you need them. To hold your hand, to give you a hug, and wipe away your tears. They don’t have to say a thing, just for them to be listen to all the sorrows of your heart is enough. But they do offer you advice and words of comfort.

No one is perfect, we all make mistakes. No matter how close or how long you have been friends, there are times when you will not agree or things may be misinterpreted. It may lead to an argument where hurtful things could and probbly will be said. The best thing to do is to cool down, take a deep breath, and seek your friend out. Tell him or her, what is going on and what you really meant. Don’t let things be left hanging for too long. It can mess everything up. It will destroy the beautiful bond created between you two.

Friends teach you how to forgive. Basically when a friend hurts you, you have two choices with how to respond to the hurt. Choice A- don’t forgive the friend and end your friendship. But you must ask your self if it is really worth it. Choices B- whole heartily forgive them and keep the friendship. Most friends Choose B nine times out of ten. A true friend would rather forgive than lose a precious friend. They would rather forgive and forget. They wipe the slate clean like the rain in spring that washes away the impurities in life. They don’t count the number of times they have been hurt.

Friends can change your mood. They can cheer you up, tell you jokes, get you to smile, and make you laugh, even when you are very depressed. And if you really don’t cheer up they are still there to listen. If you don’t want to talk, they will sit with you just so you won’t feel alone. In silence compassionately hugging you.

No matter what or who you are to your friend you are you! A friend should accept you for who you are. They should not judge you. They should be some one who you can be around and take off all the masks. With this person you no longer have to hide your inner soul and you can be whole. You can let your cool and crazy self out. You are not made fun of or thought to be strange. You are allowed to have fun. And most importantly you are allowed to be you-plain and simple as that.

some ramdomness

2006-03-23T22:21:00.000-06:00

here are some really cool songs:

"One pure and holy Passion"

Give me one pure and holy passion
Give me one magnificent obsession
Give me one glorious ambition for my life
To know and follow hard after you

To know and follow hard after you
To grow as your diciple in your truth
This world is empty, pale and poor
Compared to knowing you my lord
Lead me on, and i will run after you
lead me on and i will run after you

"Above All"
Above all powers
Above all things
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms
Above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what You're worth

crufied
Laid behind the stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

Your Song
by Elton John

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

Friendship

2006-03-23T22:17:00.000-06:00

A recipe for Friendship:

Set the heater to 60* F
Add lots of laughter
A box of Kleenex
A couple of thorns
A heap of tears
Compassion
Several good jokes
A good listener
A shoulder to be cried on
Good sincere advice
A gentle touch
To know just what to do to make the other person feel just right
A ton of understanding
An ounce of forgiveness
Now add them all in a big pot and let it boil
This will lead to a good friendship for 2.

Senses

Friendship is happy
In a sunny place
It is like heaven
It falls in love with its best friend
Always laughs
Forgives all sins
Shows compassion
Dosen’t count the number of times,
It has been wronged.
Accepts openly
Is willing to give help with out being asked

It looks like a heart:
It can be rough, cracked, or broken,
But it still cares.
Feels warm like sunshine
Feels cool like the sea
Tastes like coffee,
And is good till the last drop.
Smells like after the first spring rain
Hard as steal
Tough as nails
Fragile at times

Can rid you of an unwanted boyfriend
Visits you when you are sick
Combats depression
May be used as that pick me up drug
Useful when you need an extra hand
Good for kicking your ass
Is used to tell time
Helps you study
Good for having fun
To dry up your tears

My try at magnetic poetry

2006-03-20T12:38:00.000-06:00

Banana, apple
Hates technology
Notes give advice
The slippery mountain excites,
And enrages.
Terrible rules against me
She explodes your trash
The dump takes away pounds
Terribly intense love
The dog bites
A wonderful world to belong in

Life in wonderland
A mocked tea party
Reading books at the library
The school walks
Turtle drink
The hare and some sheep
See the cool country
Run, shrink, weep
Hearts cry and scream of love

Together
Mighty love
A gentle touch
Sleep apart
This heart must suffer
Weary, gray-darkness’s slave
Show sweet beauty
Night dust
A jealous season

these explain so much

2006-03-15T21:39:00.000-06:00

Blame
I was just trying to be me.
I was not trying to take him from u
Or hit on you.
And I’m sorry if that’s how you feel
Can't we all get along?
What about when we all celebrated our friendship-
It was suppose to be forever
Can't u just forgive and forget?
Just move on
In the scheme of things it doesn’t really matter
You should have come to me
I'd have explained and undone the hurt
But u let it be carried on till destruction explodes
I sit and a river flows
Do I write or do I let it all implode
Do I choose to confront you, even though it might mean disaster?
I don't know
You both are my friends
I don't want to lose u
I just want you to under stand
To accept me

Why?

Why do I do these stupid things?
I hurt myself and I don't even try
I struggle everyday with acceptance
Not wanting to except the real me,
That only a few see.

The person I hide deep inside
Has a face that isn't mine
She is everything I am,
But she doesn't cower in fear
She lets the truth show clean

I feel weird in my own skin
I’m dying to let my secrete out,
But I must hide it,
Because some wouldn’t understand.
That’s why it’s so hard
To be me

My face turns red
Tears fall
I’m so embarrassed about how I feel
I want to let it all out
But I have to hold back,
Or I will make more uncomfortable

A New Book

2006-03-11T23:53:00.000-06:00

Tuesdays with Morrie

I started reading this book last week as part of my college campus’s reading program, where a group of students and staff meet and discus the book. The first meeting went well, but we had to read the book out loud so I wouldn’t be lost, seeing as I didn’t get a copy till the first meeting. Now back to the book. It’s about a professor whose dying and he tells his students right away that fact. It’s written from the point of view of one of Morrie’s students.

Ironic

2006-03-11T23:52:00.000-06:00

I can’t believe what happened
I never wanted to see your face,
Or hear your voice
Again.

I plan to avoid you
To pretend you no longer exist
You offer to give me a ride
I would rather die
I think you will start trouble
But we get to where we are going
I sit next to you,
I didn’t want to,
It just ended up like this.
I give you a hug before lunch
And I don’t think it means much

Yet here I stand
I look in your eyes,
Then the tears fall
Its really a hombling experience
You give me a hug
As I wet your shirt with my river of tears

I ask you how I made you feel about 4 months prior
I hurt you and I’m sorry
I just wanted you to know the feelings inside me
We forgive each other
Our burdens our lifted
No longer carring the grudges hidden inside
For so very long
Its time to move on

Our friendship may not continue
But we can no longer hurt
It will take a long time to rebuild the bond
That wonce was so strong
It’s all Gods doing

Sick Seduction

2006-03-09T21:17:00.000-05:00

I’m burning up
I’m feeling blue
I’m green around the gills
I fight the erge to cry and then pass out
I need sleep-so tired
My head keeps getting lower and lower to the desk
I’m not done till seven tonight
I need sleep
Seeing blood just might make me vomit
I’ll be no help and they’ll be pissed
I think I’m sick-maybe it’s the flu
If I shut my eyes I’ll sleep for hours
Maybe I’ll just stop and rest
For a few
I’m so tired
Sleep is calling me-
Saying you need me, you want me
Come on just close your eyes
For not very long
I feel so weak
What do I seak?
I can hardly breathe
My head goes thump, thump
Everything sounds so far away
I can’t fight it much longer

Coming Clean

2006-03-06T22:13:00.000-05:00

A pure heart in an alder swamp
A bunsun burner for sterilizing
To get everything bad out

Where it comes now to sun and romp
Placing an adequate amount of stress
To grow interesting things

As near a paradice as it can be
Inital pain can be easily justified
Making the truth be seen

And not melt snow or start a dorment fire
If too thin it will fall apart
Make it pretty like a heart

It lifts exsistance on a plane of snow
Moisten a swab and pass it through
To rid of all the dew

"Magellan" by: Geroge Bilgere

2006-03-05T21:57:00.000-05:00

When a beautiful women lies down
On her brown belly, on her pink towel,
And reaches back and behind to preform
That curious legerdemain where by
Her dazzeling white
Bikini top is undone
And she streches out under the sun,

I continue watching the beakers
Stagger to their knees and listen
To the gulls work through
Their chronic desolation,

Thinking, for some reason
Of my mother, struggling
Into the cross-stiched straightjacket
Of her girdle
Before a night out with my father,

And I think of the boundless
Surge and heave of the ocean,
Swollen and unfettered
Before any man, crazed
By indifferent beauty, raised
White sails to cup
The wind's breasts
And girdle the globe

~this poem I found on page 21 of The Autum House Anthology of Contemptary American Poetry. This poem decribes the setting well. It is about a guy who's at the beach and he happens to see a women who is topless sunning her self. And there are sea gulls which somehow remind him of his mother. then he goes on to decribe the ocean.

My creative Juices are flowing.......

2006-03-02T19:10:00.000-05:00

is there some thing in the water ? i don't know, but it makes me wonder with how creative i've been. Every day i write one or more poems lately.

"Frezze you to Death"

Snow, sleet, and rain
Some where between 32* and -40*
A blizard outside
Lots of wind
A walk in frezzer,
Right away you stick to the floor.
You shiver and shake,
Till you can't anymore.
Your body goes numb
Frostbite sets in
The tissue turns a blueish-grey
Then it starts to peal

"dinner"

We get in a line thats very long
Both of us start to complain
Its been a long day and we are starving
We get to the teller and slide the card
Its a thing we do three times a day
We go down stairs and pic a line
It's ribs again-little burnt peices of meat,
Barely any of it is eatable.
Potattoe squares and peas
Chocolate milk in cartoons
We get a round table all to our selves
Chiped paint
A dirty floor
Comfortable chairs
Dark and secluded
No one else is around
We talk for hours it seems
Then take our trays up
Put our silver ware in that special place
Throw away garbage
Then up the stairs,
Back to our rooms we go .

"A Dusty Road"

I'm lonely
In the middle of no where
Dust is in my eyes,
And it stings them.
I'm afraid to die
And i don't want to say goodbye
But i'm sick of this life
Do i just break into this bar,
And drink till i pass out?
I just want to forget the pain
Everything's here i need to do the deed
There are ropes
Tables with glasses laid out on them,
Left over from earlier.
But what do i do?
I'm scared to do it
Do i take the plunge?
Do i be so selfish,
Or do i such it up and take this like a man?

"Destroy this Place"

Where the demon lives
An old friend of mine hides
we used to be so close
But then he took her soul
And he turned her evil
Deception now follows her everywhere,
Destroying everything she has

I want to burn up his hole,
To get rid of the disaster,
And Drama caused.
It's too late for her,
But he needs to go before he takes another!

Workshop poems

2006-02-26T22:04:00.000-05:00

a workshop for those of you who do not know is were you collect some of your peices and share them. In my case with my creative writing class where students take them home write suggestions and i get them back the next class. I used some of the sugestions and am reposting the poems below.

“Lost”

Lost is not knowing where you are
Not because I want to control you,
But because I love you with all my heart.
It hurts when I need you most,
And you are no where to be found.
You have not been seen for hours
Are you lying hurt some where?

I can’t breathe
My Lungs are on fire
No air coming in
My hearts ripped out
I’m crushed to the floor
Barely breathing,
Pumping blood every where

“Trouble”

My brother is in so much trouble
Lying, stealing, threatening kids with knifes
What the hell?

No longer doing work
Nothing phases him anymore
He’s too young to go down this road
It tears a hole in me,
And pangs my heart.
It’s so over whelming
And stressful to be home
Where I have to hide my money
Watch out for out bursts
Tell him not to do that-12 million times.
He’ll never listen,
And I’ll never be able to help
It’s a lost cause!

I’m just about ready to give up,
But something in my heart pulls.
And some how I carry on with hope,
That he’ll be alright.
He won’t end up in jail or beat up
And he’ll actually graduate high school

“The Effect”

Grief consumes me!!!
I feel pain for the friend I lost
I'm mad at her, for leaving me,
Like it was her fault
We could have been such close friends
Tears just want to fall from my eyes
Everything is so messed up
I tell myself nothing's wrong,
It doesn't affect me,
But the truth is I'm so deeply affected
Even I don't realize how deep this goes.
Tears just want to fall when I'm alone at night,
I fight to keep them back
It's a never ending battle.
Spontaneous moments of sadness
I can taste vomit in my mouth,
When will it all go away?
I still look for you,
And yet I know you are gone.
Just making sure it wasn't a dream
I want to be sure
Just want some closure
Just want you to come back to me,
But you can't and you won't and I realize that.
You’re gone and I finally admit that
My heartaches so bad now
Part of me is broken,
Torn out,
Thrown away,
And is never coming back.

“A Complicated Love"

I love you with all my heart
You are my heaven on earth
When we are together the world could explode,
And I really would not care!!

My love started with just one innocent kiss,
And from there its only grown.
We have shared so much,
Just you and I.
I can't count the number of times;
You have dropped everything,
To be with me.
To listen and give advice,
And dry every single tear.
I appreciate it all!!

The fact that you are involved with some one else-
Hurts deep down inside!!
I know you won't leave him,
But if you did it would make my life,
So much easier!!
But then again we would have to tell everyone,
Our deep down secrete.

I wish I was in denial still
I'm so disgusted at myself
You are not who I’m suppose to love
I'm suppose to love some sweet guy,
Not some one just like me!!

Is this what I want and is it right?
I don't know how to feel
I just want to be completely numb,
Or never feel again.
This is so hard to deal with
Yes, I’ve thought about it before,
But for it to actually happen is something new.

update on my computer

2006-02-25T23:57:00.000-05:00

my computer is back with me and all fixed. so i will be able to continue writing and posting. And if i learned one thing over break its that when your alone and you have no destractions, you can be very creative, as i have deffenetly been. As soon as I can tpye them up, they will be posted, along with poems i have redone and a story.

New poems

2006-02-22T18:36:00.000-05:00

~ this first poem sumarizes last weekend and each stanza is a day. ~

What a Wonderful Time

Excited, happy, content
Lots of hugs
A long talk and I don’t remember much
Seeing pictures of people I haven’t met
Food and friends
Cleaning cages and walking dogs
Class flew by
Been up 32 hours
Smiling for the camera as my picture was taken
A forgotten Valentines Day gift, I was given
It was hard to not speak about my poems
I slept for a few hours
Ate an awesome Chinese dinner
Just chilling with my friends
Posing for pictures
Uploading photos
Three pieces of cake-
One for the past, present, and future.
Lots of laughter and craziness
Then we all crashed for the night,
9 hours of sleep after being up 48 hours.

Feeding rats, mice, gerbils, and bunnies
Folding towels and putting away dishes
Eating brunch at Chaney
Being silly
Acting goofy
Almost 8 p.m. and no dinner yet
I was the only one who admitted she was hungry
Buying pizza with my sister
Driving threw Canton late at night
The bus”caught on fire”,
The pizza burnt,
But we ate it any way.
Having so much fun,
And never wanting to say goodbye,
Even though we know its Cuming.
She went in and he came out,
Then they passed out.

One of us left
Walked back to my room
Took a shower
Went to Chaney
Ate brunch
Gone to church
Said goodbye,
And tried so hard not to cry.
We will miss each other,
But we still are 5 friends,
With one heart,
Together forever

~this next one was writen after a walk into town~

If I had a Car

If I had a car-
I would have gone home last night
It would be taken care of already
I wouldn’t of had to walk,
In the freezing cold and snow,
And not even get what I was after.
Footsteps in the snow,
One set going forward and one going back,
At some point they mesh.

It wouldn’t have taken me 4 hours,
I wouldn’t have gotten so cold
My toes wouldn’t have been frozen,
Or ankles numb.
No matter how close,I got to the destination
It still seemed further away
A long road I was on,
But I was desprite.

Just in case

2006-02-22T14:18:00.000-05:00

just so you all know, if i'm not on for a while its because my computer desided to die and it had to be sent into toshiba for repairs so i will have to borrow a friends computer or use one at the libary.

2006-02-12T22:06:00.000-05:00

this is something i just wrote after an hour of writingin my note book. And currently it doesn't have a title but i'm open to sugestions.

My brother is in so much trouble
Lying, stealing, threatening kids with knifes
What the hell?
No longer doing work
Nothing phases him any more
He's going to court for lying
He's too young to be heading down this road

It tears a hole in me,
And pangs my heart.
It's so over whelming,
And stressful to be home
Where i have to hide my money
Before it's gone
Watch out for his out bursts
Tell him not to do that
12 million times
He'll never listen,
And i'll never be able to help.

It's a lost cause
I'm about ready to just give up,
But something in my heart pulls
and some how i carry on with hope,
that he will be oh k
He won't end up in jail or beat up,
And he'll actully gradute high schhol.

A Bystander Steps in

2006-02-11T14:47:00.000-05:00

His name was Jake and he was the kind who would stand up for himself and wouldn't take crap from anyone. He would follow his heart no matter what happened. He took what life threw at him and valued his friendships. He never took a day for granted. Jake's girlfriends were cherished, respected, and taken care of. They always came first even when he wasn't with them.

One day Jake was in his dorm, talking on the pay phone to his girlfriend, as a quarell broke out. Jake herd some guy yell,"You cheated onme, you fucked Alen!!!" Jake quickly told his girlfriend he had to go and he loved her, his swetty. Then Jake saw this guy coming up the stairs stomping his feet. Jake had no clue who the guy was or if he was the onewho said those very hurtful things. Next the pissed off dude slamed the pay phone a dozen times and punched the wall right above Jakes head.

Jake grabed the kids arm before the second blow and told the kid they needed to talk. Jake told him to just tell the girl how he felt and cut out all the violence, cause it wouldn't get him any ware but a jail cell. Jake also told the kid to just relax, take a deep breath, and think about what you want. After their short conversation the kid wondered off, and Jake never knew his name or the effects of his words on the kid.

When Jake saw the girl come up the stairs, with tear stained cheecks, he knew she must have been involved. He looked in to her eyes, shook her hand and gave her a hug. He told her he wouldn't mind talking to her if she needed a friend. Jake also apoligized for her boyfriend and the hurt he had caused. He would have said more but he realized he had forgotten to feed his cat, merlin.

Jake got merlin for his 17th birthday. He didn't always understand Merlin's point of veiw, but he loved him enough to give his life for his persious kitty. When jake reached his room Merlin was waiting for him whining at his food bowel. As Jake poured the food he apoligized for being late.

MY THERAPY

2006-02-07T13:40:00.000-05:00

I hate this
It does not represent me
It’s not mine
I’m so better than this

It’s my gift from God
And I cherish it
It’s my therapy
My way of getting out my feelings
It means something to me
Deep in my soul and heart

A poem with out my feelings isn’t mine
I don’t want anything to do with it
It might as well be thrown away
Or burned at the stake.

Imagery

2006-02-05T21:34:00.001-05:00

I found the following poem and it has lots of imagery. I can see every thing that happens in my mind.

"I See a Lilly on Thy Brow" by Dean Young

It is 1816 and you gash your hand unloading
a crate of geese, but if you keep working
you'll be able to buy a bucket of beer
with your potatoes. you're probably 14 although

no one knows for sure and the whore you sometimes
sleep with could be your younger sister
and when your hand throbs twice its size
turning the fingernails green, she knots

a poulttice of mustard and turkey grease
but the next morning, you woke to a yellow
world and stumble through London streets
until your head implodes like a suffocated

fire stuffing your nose with rancid smoke.
some how you're removed to a Guy's Infirmary.
Its tuesday. the surgeon will demonstrate
on wednesday and your the demonstration.

Five guzzles of brandy then they hoist you
into the theator, into the traped drone
and humid scuffle, the throng of students
a single body staked with a thousand peering

bulbs and doctor begins to saw. of course
you'll die in a week, suporting on a camphor-
soaked sheet but now you scream and scream,
push in red river, insulfuric stream

But above you, the assistant holding you down
trying to fix you with sad, electric eyes
is John Keats

In memory of Melissa

2006-02-05T21:30:00.000-05:00

\ I made this picture for her, as a memorial. Here is a poem i wrote for her on the first day of class, when i found out it was her birthday and after i bursted into tears.

The Effect

Grief comsumes me!!!

I feel pain for the friend I lost

I'm mad at her, for leaving me,

Like it was her fault

We could have been great, close friends

Tears just want to fall from my eyes

Everything is so messed up

I tell myself nothing's wrong,

It doesn't affect me,

But the truth is I'm so deeply affected

Even I don't realize how deep this goes.

Tears just want to fall when I'm alone at night,

Fall at any time

I fight to keep them back

It's a never ending battle

Spontaneous moments of sadness

Physically sick to my stomach

When will it all go away?

I just want to cry and puke,

and then I think I'll be fine

I still look for you,

And yet I know you are gone.

I'm just making sure it wasn't a dream

I think I know that now!!!

I want to be sure

Just want some closure

Just want you to come back to me,

But you can't and you won't and I realize that.

Your gone and I finally admit that

My heartaches so bad now

Part of me is broken,

Torn out,

Thrown away,

And is never coming back!!!

Deception

2006-02-02T16:21:00.000-05:00

A storm rages in the heart,
Covered with deception and lies,
Trying to tear them apart.
You listen to their deception and lies,
And ignore the truth,
When it’s staring back at you.
You drop your everything,
For what?
To play endless card games?
To be used and abused
Torched every time,
Yet you go.
Your work lays forgotten
Book open, half done
Are you ever gonna finish it?
You got a second chance
And yet your giving up already
When will you grow some balls?
When will you stand on your own feet?
When will you follow your heart?
That’s Why you’re here-ya know
Your one of the lucky ones,
But when will you listen
And do whats right?

A dream from last night:

2006-01-30T08:04:00.000-05:00

Some thing was wrong with my cat and we went to pick him up from the vet. He was wraped in red vet wrape and for some odd reason i broght my backpack w/ my computer and all sorts of other junk cause we were going to my gradma's house. my mom and i couldn't find the cat carrier so she yelled at me. when we finally found it my cat was all ready and then i got yelled at cause my mom thought i'd leave my cat there.

then we went to my grandma's and it was somebody's birthday and we had cake. the house caought on fire and i ran all through the house looking in it for my computer. i wasn't going to let that burn up. when we all got out side we watched the house get burned up.

Love like a flower

2006-01-30T07:45:00.000-05:00

A seed has been planted
Roots have grown
Soon it will poke out of the ground,
And show its potential to the world!!!

Now it grows
But no one can see or imagine,
the beauty that is held with in.
Every thing is happening,
From deep inside-
Both of their hearts!!!

Preparing for showing the world what we have
And who we are.
Will we be a tulip or a deep red rose?
It is too early to tell
All you can see is the green of our stem

Every day we grow more
soon we will have leaves,
And a beautiful flower!!!

Perfect

2006-01-30T07:29:00.000-05:00

This is perfect
Even though we are between two worlds,
So far a part!!!
I don't feel pushed or rushed
Everything feels right

I wanta start a new
Nothing in the past matters any more
This was so unexpected,
It took my breath away!!!

You are my companion
Mypartner in crime
My best friend,
Who makes me laugh so hard i cry,
And wipes away all my tears.

There is some thing unexplainable,
That i feel when i'm with you.
No words can express it
it is uncomparable
And I hope it lasts!!!

New Stuff

2006-01-29T16:48:00.001-05:00

This is the updated version :
and just so you all know this poem was written for a friend of mine who died in a car accident 3 days after christmas 2005. We were not very close but she still touched my life in the short time i knew her.

The Effect

Grief comsumes me!!!
I feel pain for the friend I lost
I'm mad at her, for leaving me,
Like it was her fault
We could have been great, close friends
Tears just want to fall from my eyes
Everything is so messed up
I tell myself nothing's wrong,
It doesn't affect me,
But the truth is I'm so deeply affected
Even I don't realize how deep this goes.
Tears just want to fall when I'm alone at night,
Fall at any time
I fight to keep them back
It's a never ending battle
Spontaneous moments of sadness
Physically sick to my stomach
When will it all go away?
I just want to cry and puke
and then I think I'll be fine
I still look for you,
And yet I know you are gone.
I'm just making sure it wasn't a dream
I think I know that now!!!
I want to be sure
Just want some closure
Just want you to come back to me,
But you can't and you won't and I realize that.
Your gone and I finally admit that
My heartaches so bad now
Part of me is broken,
Torn out,
Thrown away,
And is never coming back!!!

And here is something new:

Love walks into the room
Wearing a red silk dress
kissing him on the check
two lovers kiss
soul touches soul
heart to heart
lip to lip
and in that one moment they are conected

i'm not sure what i'm going to do with this last peice but i'll gladly take sugestions

The Effect

2006-01-25T16:06:00.000-05:00

I tell my self nothings wrong,
It don't effect me,
But the truth is I'm so deeply effected
Even I don't realize how deep this goes.
Tears want to fall when i'm alone at night
I still look for you
And yet I know your gone
I guess I'm just making sure it wasn't a dream
I think I know that now!!!
I want to be sure,
Just want some closure
Just want you to come back to me
But you can't and you won't and I realize that.
Your gone and I finale admit that
My heart aches so bad right now
Part of me is broken,
Torn out,
Thrown away,
And is never coming back !!!
Tears want to fall at any time
I fight to keep them back
Its a never ending battle
Spontaneous moments of sadness
Physically sick to my stomach
When will it all go away?